Faith

Bedah : I just don't know what to do . I think I lose hope , I don't wanna think bout it anymore .
Senah : No , don't feel like that . Don't give up.
Eton : Yup , you must always put an effort for it , Fight for it .
Bedah : I can't take it anymore , its burden me .
Melah : Bedah , you must always pray to ALLAH . He knows the best for us . He had created a story for us , and we must follow it . Don't lose hope , don't ever give up to dhu'a .
Bedah : Astaghfirullah hal azim , I must never give up . I must never lose hope . I must put my faith on Him . O ALLAH , forgive me . Thanks girls for supporting me .

Assalamualaikum . Its been a while , again , since the last entry . Quit busy and force myself not to spend time on blog if I don't finished my 6 pages of essay on silat . Alhamdulillah , its already done and ready to submit . But , there's lots of other assignment I have to do . O ALLAH , may You ease me to finish all this assignment . Its not a burden , but its a duty and amanah for me as a student.

Everyone have their own problem , same with me . I have lots of things to think and sometimes when I feel its burden and stress me out , I just wanna forget bout it . Don't wanna think bout it . I wanna erase it away from my mind . But , I realised . Its like I lose hope and don't wanna to put effort for it . And I realised that I might lose hope . ALLAHu Rabbi , forgive me . I must always pray and begging Him to forgive me and fulfill my dhu'a .

Its really making me nervous right now . Dear akhowat and ikhwan , its never too late to repent . Sometimes we just don't realise the sin we commit and when you think bout it , its really made you felt guilty . So , lets repent from the sins we commit weither we realized it or not .

It just , I really want it but its not the right time for me to get it . Its like , I'm not being patient and fine , I don't wanna think bout it anymore . Just let it be . But dear me , its not the right thing to do . Be patient dear myself , don't ever tired of dhu'a and pray to ALLAH . Maybe there's something that you must recover from yourself , maybe you're not solehah and muslimah enough . Maybe you don't tarbiyah enough your heart dear myself . Maybe you're too think of dunaiwi until you're thinking too litlle of ukhrawi . It must be balanced dear myself .

Dear myself , all I can say to you are , keep on dhu'a , keep on improving yourself , don't give up , be patient , and put your faith towards ALLAH . ALLAH knows the best for you dear myself . Don't erase or forget or tired of thinking bout it , just keep it cool , rest it deep inside your heart and wait for the moment . InshaaALLAH , it'll come (: